Bitter Sweet

So I stay alone for a long time.
But I'm not accustomed to come back for stay alone again.

But I feel better than last time so much.
Easily I'm not gnaw on, don't cry before sleep.
Easily I talk to him with feel just "brother".
Don't call, don't send massage and already don't want to meet him.
And I think I'm be strong soon.

I feel thanks my self for wrote abusively to my self last day.
"Stop please. Compasstionate towards your self please..."
I also compasstionate towards my self.
So how much he feel more than ?

Realist !! and still stand here.
Give he choose walk go on.
I'm not turn back and not go on.
Give he move along. If he tired, please turn back.
I don't wait but now I just still here.

Thanks for our best moment.
Let go feeling become memories.
Stay alone for a while.
Tired enough ...

Not get along well

One day,I woke up just to realize.
That there is no more sunshine.
And no more love in the sky...

Tried and tried to let go of what was mine,
Love that I thought was so fine.
Keeps holding my heart,won't let go...

One kiss for goodbye. One touch for the last time.
Just one more chance to be in your life...
So deep,our love lies. Bring tears to my eyes,
To realize we're not meant for each other..

You walk right in to reality.
While my heart's still wild and free.
Dreaming of love that's not mine..

And now, we both choose our own lives.
Following our own Moonlight.
My heart still denies to let go..

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This is Not get along well by MUZU.
I and my boyfriend too much love this song.
Formerly we listened this song with feel good.

But NOW ...

I never think this song used to break off our relations.

So deep, our love lies. Bring tears to my eye.
To realize, we're not meant for each other..

NOT GET ALONG WELL . . .

http://www.imeem.com/flukenakrab/music/LRzdj8ng/mu-muzu-not-get-along-well-eng-version/

Cancel Class

This week my English teacher canceled class.

NOOOOOOOO !!!


I hurried for go to study this class.
I spent 70฿ for fare.
But it canceled.

S A D . .



So I and my friends went to Post office for send a register letter
and we waited for P'Aof here.
P'Aof is a post man. He is my boyfriend's friend.
But he is close friend for me and my friends.

We went to Mor-More milk bar.
Here is our second home. 555
And then we went to Sanamchandra Palace.
We fed fish and sit leisurely.
Until 6 P.M. we went to home.


But I didn't to go home.
My boyfriend called me wait for him.
I and my boyfriend went to Silpakorn University.
We went for just sit beside together.
We listened music and talked to the past.

Just 30 minutes for this meeting.
But this moment is full of happiness.



This is the story of cancel day.
In the dark always comes to light.

Smile for everything :)

Go to Japan !!

Last week I and my friends went to Japan.
We went for make a short travel scoop.
It feel so fun because my friend wear a Kimono.
Cause I feel I went to Japan 555.

I am a special effect designer in this scoop.
I edit a girl at studio to go to Japan by bluescreen.
You maybe think it's so hard but the real is so easy.

But I thing, make light is very very hard.
Light for a girl in studio and background must be same.
When finished it just be at one.
This is a toughness for this exercise.

And the last Wednesday We must submit this exercise.
My graphic teacher (Aj.Saha) commented our scoop is smooth
but it've reflective light from the ground so it feels oppose the real.

This exercise have B+ and A.
I feel my grade more than my inwardness 555.
Glad !!



In English subject
This week I wrote a memo, a resume and a application letter.
I found a job in newspaper. I apply for a graphic designer at
ELLE magazine and then I filled the information in the forms.

This week have 12 peoples for present.
I don't know why my friends are absent.



When finished class I and my friend went to eat sukiyaki
and brouht a cartoon CD for dub.
This is my homework in this week.
We must dub a cartoon.

I choose Sailor Moon for my group.
I hope we'll enjoy.



And tomorrow...
I'll go to take a photo for sister's boyfriend.
I'll do my best !!



I and my boyfriend are as before.
1 nice day and 8 quarrel days. Ha ha ha ~
But I still happy when I talk with him.

At 5.30 AM. I must go to the bed.
Thanks for read my life.
See you next entry ^^

Speaking Test

I've speaking test this week.


THE BEST !!!!


9.5 / 10 Points.
The best of all group in this class.

2 weeks for practise.
First week, Our group typed conversation on MSN.
Our rule is don't see your conversation.
We typed for also midterm test.
If we cannot typed in English, we'll typed in Thai
but Karaoke Language Ha Ha Ha.

Second week, We speak one by one.
Our rule is everybody will add more acting.
Very joke because everybody add more acting so muchhhh.
I cannot speak go on. I luagh them. Everybody are superstar.
I hate you !! 555

I'm very worry because my conversation is so long.
I recite again and again because I have a short memory :(
But when we rehearse together I can do it.

When we testing I'm so excited.
I thing I'll do my best.
And I thing everbody think like me.

Then our conversation test brought 9.5 points for all.
Feel so happy ^^v

After that we went to Mor-More Milk bar.
We go to chill out at this shop every Thursday
after finished English class.
Icy Milkshake still the wonderful choice.

Nice day again :))))

midterm / our relation

On last Thursday I have English midterm exam.
I'm so saddddddddddddddddddddd !!!
I read a book again and again, why I have many mistake.
Less for 5 item of mistake.

"accountant" I wrote "accountian"
"architect" I wrote "achitect"

Saddddddd !!!

I wish I'll pass.
Amen !!

:(((





Yesterday I said with my boyfriend about our relations.
I'll break off my relations with him.
I told him If you want to come back to friend
I can do it and we are good friend together.
He said why do you think that ?
I said you change to more and I'm tired.
He didn't say anything but he didn't break off our relations.

I ever heard..
When we start relation it's making a decision of two peoples
but when we break off relations it's making a decision of just one people.

I think like that but I won't did like that.
I want to making a decision of two people
when we'll break off relations
because it's a good remember once in a lifetime of together.
It's the best before goodbye.


Today I come to make a movie at his home.
I'm very happy for 10 hours at his home.
He come back to me.

He's very goooodddddd.
He help me everything and he always beside me.
This project is happy. 555+


Today like a reunion.
I meet P'Pu, P'Tour, P'Aof, Love, Mind and Sine.
We didn't meet all for a long time.
I miss they so much.

Today is my happiness :)

HBD my P' Pu

On Friday 31, is my boyfriend's birthday.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU U UUU.
Wish you have a good thing and best time in your life.
Everything you think is come true.
Very very happy. I'm always beside you.
Happy birthday to my dear.



That night, I and his friends went to his home.
We went to prepare a party for him.
It not special but full of happiness.

This birthday haven't surprise.
But I feel this birthday is full of love.
His parent, his brother and his sister are all present.
His friends came join his birthday.
He smiled all time. I knew he's very happy.
I think this is a good for begin new life.
The bad is pass and the best will come.

At 23 PM. his parent gave birthday cake.
And then every one gave birthday gift.

My gift is a mix of his picture.
I layed on his bed and told to him.
He said thank you for my gift.

Then I and my boyfriend played card with his brother and his friends.
They drank alcohol but I didn't. I just sat with him.

I came back to home at 1 AM.
and they went to sleep at 6 AM.




At that night, I and my boyfriend didn't say anything together.
We just make eye contact and he smile to me.
I know this moment is the best time.
It more than word.
His eye have already said everything.
It's our heaven.
I'm happy.

At 2 AM. I send massage to him.
" Happy Anniversary :) "


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The next night, he called to me.
I asked he about my gift.
He said he like it.
Thanks for your praise ^^

PS.
This week is midterm exam.
I so worry about my homework. It so many.
But now It already pass.
I very happy HA HA HA ~

Next week is English exam.
I worry more than last week 555
I will do my best !!
Don't lazy !!!

I will go to watch Dear Galileo alone tomorrow.
Do you go with me ??

Bad week

The second entry . . .

This week is bad.
I quarreled with my boyfriend.
My boyfriend was car accident.
I didn't meet my boyfrind for 12 days.
He's so sad. But I'm so sad more than !!



On Monday, I met my boyfriend at his home.
Everything is wonderful. I'm so happy.
The next day, His best friend was died.
He went to Pataya. In this night he hang out with his brother.
And he went to home in the morning.
I didn't sleep. I waited for him come back to home.
But when he come back, he changed.

The next day, he went to provincial.
Out of contact.
I called to him since 00 AM to 8 PM.
For 20 hours, I without you.
I was cry...
I'm so tired, so hurt and so worry.
But he didn't care my mind.
He said "Why did you cry ?"
"You know, you'll try to everything is worse !!"

I didn't to say.
I was cry cry and cry.
Finally, we quarreled.

The next day, He was car accident.
He wasn't injured but his car is ruined.
At that time, I'm more than enough.

I try to call to him.
I try to talk to him.
I try to meet him.
Because I think a lot about him
but he end the conversation.

I don't know the reason but I'm sad.
Our love is worthless . . .



I won't think a lot.
I am working hard for forget everything.
Midterm exam will be on the next week.
I must read a book and do a lot of homework.

I will smile for everything.

This is the way I have already chosen
I cannot turn back time to change anything...



Love U na my P'Pu..

First Date

My name is Pakkhawan Thongsuk.
You can call me Mod.
I'm a glasses girl.
My ID is 504309122.
I study in Art and my major is Digital art at NPRU.
I love this major and I wanna be a motion graphic designer.
And this semester, English for career 1 is a component of my subject.

My english teacher try to practice her student are good english skill
so I write this blog for practice my english skill !!

I will try try and try.



This week I study in unit4.
This lesson is Asking for and giving directions.
In this class my teacher gave me read conversation with Nong.
I'm Nit and Nong's Jack.
Jack ask me about NAP company.
I read this conversation so good 555555
My teacher told me that my accent is well
but I have to add more acting.
And the last
I gave direction for go to the playground on the map to my teacher.
This activity is fun and it also improve my skill.

I love this class.

^^

JOKE :
My boyfriend ..
he writes diary in english,
reads english book,
speaks english with his friend,
listens english song,
watches english movie.

All of his life is ENGLISH !!

because he is half blood
and he had study in India

But !!
I stupid english so much
and my boyfriend never speak english with me.
5555555+
OK ,, We're difference :)




PS.

My hi5 is modshow.hi5.com
and my thai diary online is imod.diaryis.com
[Password via mail box]

See you later.
THANKS for read this entry ^^